you got me thinking too much

Love's mum big day

2012-02-13T22:43:00.001+08:00

So today was like a lazy day for me. Work and study at the airport all by myself. yuppp i did called my friend but yeah she doesnt even answer and can still tweet somemore. So whatever, cant depend on them when i need company.

So at abt 6 i make my way to bedok from airport and went to emicakes for a chocolate mousse for his mum. And i was nervous but i did text and called his mum and his mum said that why people keep calling her and ask if she's at home and she said she cant go out just because of that. Hahaha so yeah i passed the cake to her and even before she accept it she beams widely and was about to cry, well i think she's really touched cause i did told her it was from syahid but after i pass the cake to her i totally forgot to wish her happy birthday. Omg!

So i got home and watch tv w my siblings and had dinner. Its all good :)

120212

2012-02-12T22:28:00.001+08:00

Nice date huh! Wait till its the month of dec insyaallah if we're still tgt. And that would be 12.12.12 to celebrate our monthsary. Anw happy 37th monthsary. Ure not easy to handle and im clumsy and slow myself. We have our flaws and imperfections but i do love you.

So, its been a while since i had a good decent outing w syahid every sunday cause he have to book in. Sad life for the girlfriend. Anw i merely texted him
Lets go out and he said ok. Was shock cause i didnt expect him to agree w my plan and we did meet at 4 and i spent my time w him till 9. We went peekture shop and efan and haziwah make their way there and head to marina, he got a new jeans frm bershka and we had dinner at ljs and we walk to promenade to find his mum a present since tmr is her big day and he is celebrating it tonight and we train to kembangan to get the chilli ctab but the crabs are sold out :( so we went to get his things at sing song and ntuc for camp tmr :(

Been a good weekend w my love ones, skating and just head out with love. It'll be better if i gt to meet my girls too :))

No one is perfect

2012-02-10T22:18:00.001+08:00

Even if at times they drive you crazy, be thankful for them. They’re doing their job by keeping you happy and loving you endlessly regardless of your flaws. You both picked each other for a reason and ended up together for a reason. So think about what they have done for you before you say something you might regret.

That is why syahid, at times when i do get mad at you, be it for something silly or something really atrocious like you lying or cheating behind my back, you're still the one keep thinking about at the end of the day. You mean alot to me just like my family and both my bestgirls are as important to me. If you cant stand my behavior, please sont cheat nor lie to me, i rather you say it to my face honestly and leave.

Love you MSBZ <3
PS: doesnt mean we have nothing in common(like i cant play l4d) or we have no chemistry, we cant be together. Thats just plain bull**** :))

Good time with great friends

2012-02-09T23:27:00.002+08:00

o from the pictures, can really see that im having a really good time w my peers be it spending my time w my girls and also catching up session w jaliah and aisyah and talk abt pri school moments.

Spent my tuesday w aisyah and jaliah and head to swensen's since jaliah wanted the ice cream. And i had lamb chop. And we talk and cracked jokes non stop and i had tummyache due to laughing too much. So fun lah! Then we head to bedok point and slack at banquet for no apparent reason and head home by 66. Awesome day!

On wednesday, spend my day w sherry having lunch at arnold's randomly and searching for her van's shoes but luck wasn't on our side. Guess the stock of shoea finish alr :( sighhhh guess im getting converse. I wanted the high cut vans so bad sia! Urghhhh :'(( so head to yishun and play arcade while waiting for rausyan to come and we played arcade and had lunch at ljs w rausyan and cont w arcade seaaion and for came and redeem our prizes which are the game cards and back to ljs and just slack there and play all the games and head home at 11 plus. Fun day out w my girls since its been a long time since we last meet.

loves

2012-02-06T20:55:00.003+08:00

i was the baby. and thats my late grandparents. I would do anything just to get them back here. i really miss them.

i miss every single one in my family, be it my late grandfather as well as my late grandma. The last i saw my late grandfather was when i was in primary school. i couldnt recall how old i was, but i remember a day before that we had a family chalet and he was there, our whole family was there and we had loads of fun, little did i know his blood vessel burst during operation and he left us just like that. I really miss him alot, i really do.

My weekends

2012-02-05T23:43:00.001+08:00

So to sum my weekend, it was a little mundane cause we dont have any plans, well actually saturday was suppose to be a jogging date but i dissappoint him cause i couldnt wake up in the morning :(
And he was pretty mad. So i spent my afternoon at home and he texted me to get ready if i want to get my pretzel. Heehs! So i did cause i wanna make full use of my time to spend w him when i could. Meet up at bedok as usual and 67 to tampines to get my choc eclair pretzel and something frm
Cold storage and mcd for syahid lunch.
And 65 to ite mcpherson and we split and i was alr at the bus stop to go hm and he texted me bash was there so i made a u turn back to the sch and get to see him train and talk w bash. :) getting to see him train for fb again is fun, just like a hobby to me. I hope he can excel for future games. Amin.

Got back at 6 and get ready for masjid for maulidur rasul w kakak and mum and abin. We cab there and its really pack w muslims. Great atmosphere celebrating Nabi Muhammad's birthday! It went smoothly.

Sunday! Well i owe my baby a jog so i set my alarm at 6 but im only awake at 7 and got ready and meet at bedok and we jog to east coast. Not bad, we made it to the mcd near the lagoon. Its quite bad cause i had a headache and feel like throwing up! Had breakfast at mc and we walk by the beach errr pathway along the beach. Its nice! And we bus 197 to bedok and got his maggie for camp and alter his pants and i head hm and nap for 2 hrs and watch tv and eat and mustafa w just parents at night and had thosai! Yummms.

1st feb 2012

2012-02-02T18:58:00.001+08:00

Im one day late posting on what happen on 1st feb! Indeed its a big day for me cause it all marks my last day of my final year project. Yeah this is one of the module im really afraid of!

So i got up as per normal, got ready, but somehow i was abit unlucky cause my meeting strts at 10 and we have to be there by 945 and i told dini i could make it at 930. But its a disaster for me! I had to wait for 5 for more than half an hr and it made me anxious, and i missed 1 bus cause it was too pack and it was alr 9 and im still at my bus stop, but thank god the bus i gt drove fast and by 920 i got 966. And i did hope for a miracle to happen and im really bless by Allah cause what i asked for did came true. As soon as i alight 966, 903 came so i didnt have to wait any longer, by the time i alight dini alr texted me the assesors ask to gt in. I panicked and wanted to go thru by the back door but damn, there's temperature taking so i had to go thru the front door! But i manage to walk fast enough and strt on time. Phewwww

Damn those heels! So everything went well, and it ended yesterday. Got hm straight frm sch and cook me maggie and took a super long nap. Pretty much sum up my day and went to masjid at night for maulud nabi for the second time :))

And my baby pass his law test! Mmm did i just call him baby?!? Yeah well my syahid passed! Im really glad and grateful cause he was so nervous. But alhamdulillah! POP FOR HIM!

really awesome day

2012-01-30T22:18:00.002+08:00

My day started as my dad woke me up in bed and i look at the clock its 915 AM!

CRAAAAAAAAAP! Automatically i knew, damn im super late for class. So yah got ready for school and it all went smoothly and love's mum called me when i was otw to sch and we talked about the court hearing letter thingy.

And reach class, goodies were all spread in table 3 and grabbed some and start on my ws and faci came in and start lesson as per normal and break had nasi goreng ayam and ppt was a-okay.

Head home, and i missed my stop at condo so i had to stop at interchange but love's mum texted me when i was in the bedok neighbourhood and decide to drop by her hse to pass her the court letter, and i was there at 4.58pm and i stayed till 6.45pm. Yeah quite long huh, i was awkward but its really the nicest meet up ever. Feels like im really bless to have met syahid's family.

His mum first talked abt the lawyer court thingy and about the verdict, and then slowly she came up to the topic of her son's. And its something im hearing for the first time. His mum told me abt his childhood stories and comparison between him and his brother and somewhat what she describe its true enough for me to know syahid within this 3 yrs his mum just said all his behavior to me.

He still cuddles his mum and ask his mum to put him to slp. how cute. And he has a softer side even when he is raging mad unlike his brother. Everyman has a soft spot, thats what makes my syahid so sweet lah. we we chatted all the way, and she had tears falling when she told me abt syahid being too protective towards his mum when his teacher scolded him during primary school.

He's lovely!

Dont u fcuking deny

2012-01-28T23:59:00.001+08:00

Cursing makes you feel better! So yeah here it goes!

Fuck! It was a really nice day out w u and u mention all those things and yes i thought its all fibe. Mmmm bt if at the end of the day she's all in ur mind then like wtf. Hello, heres the only place theres like fucking no one reading my blog cause im a fucking nobody so dont fcuking tweet im like telling the whole world cause who the fark read my stupid site here.

Yeah, u shld really go back to her if u cant forget abt her, deny all u want lah but obviously u still love her! Fucking lucky girl but too bad she didnt realise how a nice guy like u still love her aft fucking 4-5 yrs of nt being tgt!
Fcuking feels like a rebound. Mmm its all retrubution. Maybe its what i got now!

Post all those songs obviosly fr who else right. Cb lah! Call me whatever names u want lah! Fcuking gt no mood for anything!

2012-01-26T23:16:00.002+08:00

Absolutely mean, rude and super selfish and whatever comes out from is definitely harsh!

freedom of speech

2012-01-26T14:35:00.004+08:00

I still can't help it but to think if this is just a game for you to play or tamper around with my heart. It took me a lot of courage to keep trusting you again and again but if you keep breaking your promises and still fooling around, what is there left for me?

Perhaps you entering the national service makes you more wiser,at least that was what i thought and the first few months you didn't even mention about H so i thought you're able to get over her, but i was wrong. Now i have go through daily that you're never gonna be able to let her go.

That's somewhat what i can't take, facing the facts that someone you love wholehearted and he's not reciprocating to yours.

The fight we had last Sunday was something i hope im never gonna repeat it again. But you kept letting out strings of vulgarities towards me, how can i tak it all. No apologies just yet?

Ive never had a good body shape, and it does make me feel insecure with all the photos you posted. I hope you can accept me the way i am.

Gong xi fa cai

2012-01-23T21:15:00.001+08:00

Store open at 12 pm today, so i had the chance to woke up and head to work a bit later. While i was getting ready i knew my menses gonna be soon cause i can feel the cramps alr, but yes i still cont to gt ready for work and it started to hurt badly when i was reaching work place and i did told syahid abt it.

Yada yada yada opened counter 12 and it was smooth until i started to sweat a little due to the pain and kept taking a deep breathe thinking it would help ease the pain but nope, look at the time it was 12.54 so i told myself okay i could push myself to work a little longer until 3. But i couldnt even stand straight properly,my legs and hads are so weak i had so squat at my counter and cried for supervisor and asked fd i could go hm. And natalia let me sit at the supp table and rest and nadia comforted me too. My legs were shaking and i kept crying until jeeva came and ask whats wrong and i felt like throwing up so ran to the toilet. Touching part of my day starts from here.

Called syahid upon throwing up on the toilet sink and i cant even talk properly cause it hurts super bad. And a lady came in and she asked are u okay and a c4 staff came in too and coax me. I couldnt stand the pain so i went out and sit on the bench and the lady came out and sat right next to me and kept patting my back and a man stand right in front of me and my luck was good cause she told its okay, hes a dr, a woman's doctor. So i look up and he smiled and he asked me to take a panadol i said ive gt none and i was still crying badly and she nvr stop patting my back and said her maid was that way too but even worst than me while her husband got me a hot milo. I felt better and she asked stranger coming out frm the toilet if they have panadol for me and another married couple gave me panadol and water for me and they left soon aft and dr chng came and gave me the milo he bought frm toast box. I was really touched with the kindness these people offer though im a stranger and ya allah the lady offered me to go to his husband clinic for a check up and she even said dont worry my husband wont charge you. Astaghfirullah, seriously it was touching. I cant even thank them for their help today. May allah bless them, amin. And he gave me his card and asked to get hm to get rest and kept repeating to visit his husband clinic at mount elizabeth and she even spell out his husband name and gave me the add of the clinic. And wished me happy new yr and left. Nadia came and asked if anybody could picked me up, she asked kakak, syahid but i said their working and she comfort me like im a baby and she even let me lay down on her lap and for abt 10 mins it was awkward ppl seeing u crying in public but idc of cause since its killing me and my legs and hands were weak and i cant even hold the milo own my own. Nadia helped me to cc and i rest there for half an hr an my baby kept texting too, love him so much. Felt better so i gt hm by cab and my gd luck doesnt stop there the pakcik thought i was chinese so ask if i wanna go hosp but then aft we talk he said cik igtkn adik cine. He ask if the aircon was fine and said pls go the the hosp for check up an all. And upon reaching hm he ask if the company gonna pay for my taxi fare i said nope cause this is not under company injury and fare was $10.48 he said tkpelah cik amek $8 je cause cik pon da nk balik cik tgl at kallang bahru. I smile but i said tkpe saya ikhlas and he said nvm also hand him $10 and he return $2 and when i wanna go out he still ask me to get more rest. My day couldnt get any better with these kind soul helping me out. And everyone of them are strangers! Im so bless, and its all thanks to Allah i believe the reason i met these kind people :)

2012-01-22T20:54:00.007+08:00

SATURDAY 21 JANUARY 2012

7 am in the morning woke up to syahid's text msg and i got ready for my morning jog with jannah. Met her at 830 at her blk and walk to east coast and did stretching and start on our jog till Mcd near lagoon so we had our breakfast there and walk back to starting position.

Head home after that and relax for abit and start to paint my nails and just as i was about to take a nap, syahid texted saying can we meet earlier, so had my shower and fried the oreos straight. it was a bad idea bathing first cause i was sweating after frying the oreos but wasnt that bad. and meet boo at bedok and we trained to bugis and waited for sam and gf and trained again to marina bay. Din was there so 5 of us proceed to marina barrage via shuttle bus and met the rest there.

By the time we reach it was alr drizzling and soon it started to rain heavily so we set up our mat on the upper level which was quite good cause its just us there with another family, not as crowded. :)

So we had loads of food, i was starving so i just ate up most food. heehs and i brought fried oreos and syahid with his fortune cookie.

Then started with the camwhoring session and games and kite flying and chit chat for the boys. It was really awesome, in fact its better than awesome i just had no better words to describe the day went super well. and we head to bugis for sheshaa and got home at 4am sent by Amin.

And to syahid, im priud of who you are, and im happy seeing you happy together with ur peers, the way you laugh when ure with them really made me smile cause u really enjoys ur company with them yesterday.

2012-01-22T20:39:00.003+08:00

Friday fridayyyyyy gotta get down on fridayyyyyyyyyyy!

So friday went toally well except for the part when i had to present my part in class and i did stutter, yeah i think im in deep shit! but still it was fine.

It was raining when i wanna go home and syahid said that his mum is fetching him so i thought alright then i shall go home straight but jenny texted me at the last min and decide to meet up at Northpoint. we met and had or lunch and chatted all the way she shared with me what she have been going thru and yes its not easy for her. I wonder how she cope with ppl cheating, playing and toying around with her feelings. Such a strong girl, just like my bestfriend sherry. Though she never talk about her problems with me and fir i do know how she felt deep inside, but of course for me i had to let it out.

My friends all been putting a strong front though how bad their situation is. Well, ive been on the same boat except for the fact my man has becoming more mature and wise not to play around with love i guess.

So back to friday, we had pastamania and talk about everything, now then i knew people cannot be trusted, its just super hard to gain trust from others when we give our away easily. sighhh and we head to mcd for double chocolate frappe and went cold storage for my oreos and pancake mixed and we separated from there.

Home! and my girls plan to meet up randomly, and we met at bedok and head to simpang bedok by the time we reach there it was late so me and sherry shared chicken wings w fries while fir had float and we head back home after that. A short but yes i had fun with my girls <3

Tomorrow is PICNIC DAYYYYYYYYY! CANT WAIT!

2012-01-19T00:06:00.001+08:00

Its about time i have to wake up! Ure faking this rs cause u wanna move on frm H! U said it urself! Does that mean this 3 yrs rs is a lie
I cant express my feeling all in twitter but if u can cheat on me once twice thrice u can do it many more time and if u can leave me silently for about two to three times u can do it again.
I dont want to do this but u didnt change for the better either. Ur curses and swears and u the most i hate was wheres ur compassion? i think ure heartless.

2012-01-18T23:32:00.001+08:00

My pillows are soaking wet of my tears like as if my saliva covered the whole pillow cover :'(

cant be bother

2012-01-18T22:37:00.002+08:00

i used to receive ur morning and good night msgs right before i went to up and even before im awake.

Now that i didnt get ur text, i do feel that we're 'drifting' apart. I call u but u didnt answer, and i text u but no reply from you.

if ure reading this i dont mean to complain, but this is a really tough stage for me to get through this shit!

even when i got a reply from you, theres no comfort nor its a soothing text msg. whatever.

perhaps ure really having a bad time in camp, fine with that. but i really miss you.

but its just tough for me to go thru this stage of not being able to get thru you that easy. But its a good thing ure still in Sg and not often travel to other country, i might not be able to deal with that either.

No monday bluesss

2012-01-17T23:55:00.001+08:00

The heading explains it all.

My girls actually accompany me to funan without a plan for a meetup and its a sweet day we spent our day out roaming ard singapore by foot as usual.

Anniversary celebration

2012-01-14T23:35:00.001+08:00

By far this is the best anniversary celebration ive ever had!

Well, its a belated celebration but still special for me of course!

Met at 2 and head to vivo for lunch rightaway and the rest all continuessss..
Barcelos>cable car ride to sentosa>desperados>megazip;thanks to mirah we got the tix for free :) >songs of the sea>sky ride & luge> walk by the beach> cable car ride back>home!

Awesome celebrayion ever with the mr nice guy but like to argue with me always. But whatever it is, i still sayang him of course!

HEART SO PAIN

2012-01-13T20:26:00.003+08:00

fucking wanna cry my hearts out. we just met and just because of a fucking vicks u say i overeact.

I TOTALLY, ABSOLUTELY,CERTAINLY WITH NO QUESTIONS UNDOUBTEDLY HATED IT TOO MUCH WHEN U SAY I OVERREACT JUST CAUSE OF A STUPID VICKS I WANNA BUY FOR MY MUM WHO IS SICK. AND YEAH I KNOW URE TIRED, BUT U STILL GG OUT W UR FRENS TONIGHT RIGHT. AND MY GIRLS, SUPERB, WENT OUT WITHOUT ME THINKING IM WITH YOU ALL THE WAY. BAIK LAH TU. CONTINUE AH NI MCM! BUT AT LEAST THEY HEAD OUT W/O ME WIH A REASON, WHATEVER THEY UNDERSTAND ME, SO I GUESS THANKS! And bonus point u just went home just like that, yalah i have to understand ure tired. -__-

FUCKKKKK WANNA CRY SIA!

We turn three today!

2012-01-13T01:34:00.001+08:00

Well i was caught up with fyp report and didnt get to blog about our long driven relationship that would last this long! Alhamdulillah syukur, im really grateful to allah most definitely cause im w syahid. Its just that im not sure how its gonna be in future. Well shall fret not about that.
So my policeman will be out tmr and i got plans for us on saturday! Weeee

We have gone thru alot of hiccups in our rs and its not easy sustaining our ties this long and in addition ure a really charming capable young man who can get any chicks out there but im glad ive got you. :))

Sweeter than honey

2012-01-08T23:12:00.001+08:00

I never imagine he would say this to me,ever. Insyaallah we shall make it! Amin

Third day of new yearrrr

2012-01-03T12:23:00.001+08:00

Well its alr third day of new year and its not a good start cause im alr sick. But to reminisce my year of 2011 its been so far so good and awesome cause im still with syahid though we had a break for about a mth i guess but, alhamdulillah i still have you now and my best girls are always with me and my family members all are safe and healthy.

New years eve was splendid. We did fight abt me not being able to handle how u cant forget abt ur past and also a third party came along but other than that its all good. We did manage to catch the firework at gardens by the bay though we had to walk quite far but its been awesome getting to spend some time with you!

And we're both not well, insyaallah may we get healthy soon. Amin. Love youuuu ;)

2011-12-26T00:05:00.001+08:00

I am super mega bored right now! That explains this post!
Ive been away frm my family since last thurs night, and i miss them so much and im beginning to miss my grandmother too :'(
Im here all alone at home, with nth to do except watch tv. Sighhh

But im looking forward for KL tmr w my love! I hope everything will go well. Insyaallah,amin!
And to my boy syahid, get well soon sayang <3

Friday w the girls

2011-12-25T00:29:00.001+08:00

Friday went all fine. Met my girls and sent my little baby laptop for repair. I hope the hardisk is fine cause i havent had any back up simce my harddrive is missing. So i hope its not so serious*cross fingers*
After we settle the laptop we head to town for nasi ayam despite the heavy rain we shared umbrella's and run thru the traffic to ion for shelter and got us soaking wet! Everything was drenched by the rain :(

So we got over it, and walk to lucky plaza for our lunch at ayam penyet ria. Finally satisfy one of my cravings i had since last week. Heehs and i saw ricko and he was kind enough not to charge me for the service charge which save us 10% of the total bill. Happy palate, and we head to find fir watch and saw haziq. And none catches her eyes so we head to far east and did my nails. I had dark blue. Not that attractive gonna do other colours the next time :))

And its still raining, so we had to go home cause sherry is nvr gonna walk in the rain though we had our umbrellas. Waited for 5 for a long time, and finally got home.

2011-12-21T03:46:00.001+08:00

Its been 2 straight nights. I cant seem to sleep but yest was bcause i was watching videos but tonight my heart is exceptionally painful with the no good feelings. I feel this hurt real bad just like syahid left the first time during our rs when it failed. This is totally not normal and im really scared. I need sleeping pills.

Feels like as though a part of me just died.

2011-12-20T23:39:00.001+08:00

Go ahead and make me look bad on twitter. People are siding with you. Thanks for making me feel 'better' when im at my worst!

Turnoff tuesday!

2011-12-20T22:38:00.001+08:00

Started my day getting ready for a movie but it all ended up with fuming mad moment by non other than my bestfriend, fir. Yes, time and again, its not the first time either it happened. We planned and it got backfired.
She got last min diarrhoea. So i wasted my 2 hrs waiting for her all dressed up and excited for my nasi ayam penyet and movie at the platinum suite but never happened!

Stayed at home till about 430 pm and aisyah asked me out! Thank goodness! My saviour. Accompany her to far east as she wanna survey her bandage skirt and i got my fried mars balls and bubble tea and we head to 313 somerset continuation of searching her skirt at cotton on and f21 and mango.

Then head to bugis st and she finally got it! So we slack at the side of the walkways when haerull called and ask if i had dinner, and after so long of not meeting him we had dinner at tong seng, the 4 of us tgt w amin. And he gave a lift till aisyah hse and i spend a little longer at her void deck and talk abt the past. Its really fun being able to see her after so long! She just save my tuesday!

2011-12-20T22:05:00.001+08:00

So my monday was totally fine. Met aishah at t3 and had our brunch at wang cafe w my all time fav fish ball noodles and dini came and we head to t2 for the survey.

It was super awkward to start up the survey and ask for people to spare few secs of their time but some were reluctant and rejected on helping us w our school project.
Met belle and she follwed me all the way i went for the survey and great enough i finish first asking 20 people. Weeee

So i left dini and aishah for them to finish theirs and i went in transit w belle for dunkin donuts and starbucks latte. We sat and talked. It was really relaxing until belle had to back to work and i got home.
Slack at home had late lunch and fir texted me asking if i wanted to meet her, fair enough it was 830 and she came down to my bus stop and we bused 15 to tampines. And i got myself tako pachi and koi and accompany her for dinner at mcd while she charges her hp and we got home at abt 11pm.

Thats when my blood boils up when my brother ate my portion of rice cause i havent had dinner and he had mine. Was so bloody pissed of coursw and couldnt slp till 5 am in the morning.

Saturdate was a great success

2011-12-17T23:15:00.001+08:00

Met my boy at noon and pass his cough syrup and we bused to town since train been giving problems so bus would be a safer and faster option.
Alight at PS as usual, and we shopped for our necessities at daiso, found eveything we needed.
And window shopped, tried to find a new sandal or a boat shoe for me but theres nth. Thought of heading to orchard central for our lunch but its raining heavily, so we went to c4 and got myself guava and saw my brother! Heehs

And we bused to marina sq and had our lunch there. I thought of staying till 4 or 5 but MANGO sales attracted me into the shop and yessss its my first time shopped for 2 blouses and 2 jeans and a pants at one go. Syahid was veryyyyyy patient w me. I ask him to take,hold,and get for me blouse pants and jeans for me. But its good when i shop w him cause at least i get to ask his opinion on which looks good on me or what he likes on me :)) so after the spree of $165 which i think is an overwhelming amt for me we walked ard finiding some other things for syahid.

Slack at starbucks w a hot caramel macchiato and got finally got his perfume and we bused 14 back to bedok. And last round of getting our toiletries ready for KL and we went separate ways.

And again, alhamdulillah though it rained heavily we still had a good day out and everything went just fine. But he still owe me rojak!

2011-12-17T22:58:00.001+08:00

Last post was all about abg din's wedding. So a highlight of what i did last week was pretty much, i did nothing at all! MC on monday to wednesday and thurs and fri i got no school. Life is really goooood and awesome. And holiday is kickin in already! An i cant wait for my short getaway to KL with my inspector :D heehsssss.

So we wednesday was remy's and his twin bday, hairi. Happy 22nd to you both! And fir got me and sherry suprised them at their place! It was fun, getting to meet his twin and his gf mil and us makes his hse merrier. We made him tiramisu, it was our first attempt but it taste kinda good, but can be improve of course! ;)
Fir and sherry played their ps3 for few hrs trying to destroy the monsters! And we got hm quite late, but overall it is fun! We took a group picture, hopefully i can get it frm whoever's camera it was.

Friday as usual,i would either work or slack my afternoon at home and fetch my favorite inspector at cck interchange. Im really happy getting to see his face and being able to talk without arguing all the time,cause at times small little things can spark out a fight. As usual, trained to woodland and took 168 to bedok and hes kind enough to treat me to dinner cause i havent had dinner yet. We didnt meet later at night cause i bet he will be too tired to get ready and change and go out again, it will be too troublesome for him. But getting to see him makes me feel much better :))

Abg din wedding

2011-12-12T19:42:00.020+08:00

On 10th and 11th of dec we head back to kampong for abg din's wedding at batu kikir. It's been... i think years since i last step into the kampong. kinda missed it and its alot more fun when my whole family went altogether. Dad drove to kampong first and we had a quick change and we made our way to abg din homestay which took us 1hr 40mins to his place, and we are not familiar with the roads there, so we got lost but we still made it his place and met anuty rudi's family and they got ready proceed to the girls side.

we slpt in the living room

the day was bloody humid.

chubby cheeks

thats my lovely familiaaaaa

getting ready before moving off

posing for glamour...pfft

guess what's the monkey is sucking. yeahhhh..his dick!

my cutest little nephew irfan danie! He loves to camwhore!

that's abg din! :)

cousin's from perak. oh and both the sister said that my legs were long but my upper abdomen is short. wish i got a longer body so i can be taller.

All ze cousins.

Finally a full picture of us. abg din and suzanna.

view of the mountains from my kampong is really peaceful

my brother is a genuis. forgot to bring his smart shoes ended up wear capal with his smart outfit

yeahhh, LIKE A BOSS!

thats my dad. thank god we made it back and forth safely cause with the way he drove, really scares the shit out of me!

second day, abg din sanding day!

abin and mummyyyyy

the ladies, as usual must snap a pic.

sg says prata,but msia is roti canaiiiiii

solo

teh tarik for breakfast

this is the horrible accident we saw. its really terrifying :(

CUTEST LITTLE TODDLER!

Both brother love to play soccer

the hantaran.

uncle ismail, the dad of the groom.

sanding-sanding

the priority was given to the family of the groom. we dont find this in sg, do we? we were treated like royals cause we dont have to walk to get our food, people serve the family members :) how awesome.

the chicken bbq is superb! i ate 5 chickens cause its damn good like F!

chendol time!

i ended up finish the cooling soup and left the chendol behind. heehs.

the vip table!

us with the bride and groom.

my elder sister snap every of our eyes. hahaha she got nothing better to do.

cute little chocs; hantaran from the bride.

110km/hr; where can we get in sg. the max spd would be 90km/hr in sg roads.

hungry dad

oklah actually all of us were hungry...

pizza for dinner

A fruitful wednesday and thursday!

2011-12-08T22:56:00.001+08:00

Here goes my day for wed! Weeee
Woke up to a text msg from dini asking to meet early so i was awke at 11 And i had to rush and get ready to sch, and got myself vitasoy and a burger ao i dont starve any longer :))

Went in class w aishah and imran came not long after that and he did the ppt and tkm came in and we discuss. Dini was late apparently but its not a crucial meeting anw. And he left aft 40mins. I got home and slack in bed and head out at 610 and meet fir at bus stop to meet the rest of the gang at bedok int to kampong chai chee for dinner :D as usual rausyan was uber late! So we proceed to kg chai chee and had dinner. It was a really scrumptious dinner after so long with baby squid sambal, sambal pari, tom yam seafood soup, black pepper beef tgt w kang kong belancan. Alhamdulillah.
Head to grandlink for our karaoke session. Suprisingly i wasnt that shy singing in front of them, probably its because im alr used to being them and their really close to me. Had loads of song. Farhana was the super chaotic song w us shouting instead of singing! The room was blast with our 'sweet' voices :)) and we end the session at 1108 and i gor home w fir take 21. Highlight of the day was - muhammad syahid actually called me at 615 in the morning just to ask me what did his mum talk to me abt last night when i lass her abt the accident document and sulrisingly i did answer his morning call. Its really sweet when i can actually listen to my favourite man voice first thing on the morning. Thank you god :)

Thursday was a draggy morning for me cause i had to force myself out from bed and head to work for 10-3, alhamdulillah time passby fast just like i hoped for. Amin. And had lunch at BK while waiting for fir to reach and got some undergarment from cotton on body. And head to paragon for fir interview and got my free toffee nut frap at scotts road SB outlet! Weeee and waited for sherry to come! So awesome lah get to meet the girls again. Love love them loadsss! And accompany for for threading and we head to 313 ljs and have our dinner and bus home 65 and played charades in bus. So funny! My girls are the best, someday i wish i can travel with them and enjoy life. Amin! Thats my thursday. Oh and im missing my precious policeman :(

2011-12-06T00:15:00.003+08:00

start my monday by coming in late for class. Niceeeeeee, there goes my A grade!

And start the lesson immediately and during break faci gave us hell loads of goodies on our table and i grab what i like. hehehe

and class went well today, i got helpful classmate to help me out and i can explain to the class. And we played taboo and our team won and we got the delfi almond chocs. since its free, it taste really nice and i also like almonds.

After school met up with jannah at lobby of w1 and walked to interchange and took 966 to parway and had chicken rice for dinner and then cheesecake and toffee nut frappe. Settle down at starbucks and do our rj and walk ard and head home.

2011-12-05T23:35:00.006+08:00

Woke up to a morning msg from syahid asking me to get ready so i did and head to his block and waited for him to get ready of course and we head to bugis/golden mile once again and this time its for real to book our bus tix! weeeeeeeeee

hotel room, booked!
bus tix, bought!

Head to zam zam for our late breakfast cause i was super hungry and too bad theres no nasi goreng, so murtabak it is. And bused to bedok and find his neccessities for camp around bedok central. Good thing bedok has all the convenient shops for us to find anything and everything.

Its a good thing i ditch work and head out with this police boy here cause i would buy his time just so that i can spend more time with him.

Head home to a heavy rain and i slpt throughout my afternoon till evening.

2011-12-05T22:15:00.006+08:00

My weekends was really wonderful. Its been a long time since i had a proper date with syahid, spending time together and its just us having fun.

Its a simple date but pretty awesome to me, cause honestly even if we didnt do anything i will still be happy with him right beside me. (same goes for my girls as well, but i know if im with my girls, there will be things we will talk about)

Met him at his blk and we head to bugis to see the available coaches for our trip and we got one but hotel need to be booked first. So he was kind enough to accompany me watch breaking dawn. Head to cathay for our tix which was worth it cause with the passion card i can gt the tix for just $14 on a weekends. yayyy and we had lunch at LJS and saw fad and arif. And we bought umbrella cause it was raining cats and dogs if we were to head to cathay without an umbrella.

Caught the movie , and trained to sommerset and walk around and met sam and liyana outside cine, head to hereen and saw aqilah and hafiz too. Then me liyana and sam and boo went to BnJ for ice cream on a cold rainy day. Head back to 313 and walk ard again and went home aft that.

Pretty long day with him, like 10 and half hours., by far the longest date after so long <3

exciting plan

2011-12-02T22:35:00.007+08:00

TGIF todayyyyyyyyyy.

So my day goes like thisss...

My brother woke me up at 845 because im supposed to get ready for work, but the weather is seriously perfect, plus my bed and turtle doesnt want me to leave. So at 9 my dad woke me up and ask me to get ready for school, but i do not have class on friday. So i open my heavy eyelids and slept again. At 10 i woke up to 2 syahid's of text msgs and i replied him and slpt again and this up i woke up at 12 for good. Watch tv and bath at 1 and get ready and had laksa for brunch and head out to PS for an exchange of my some stuff and bused to cck int.

Met ze boy and bused home, and saw my cousin and he took the same bus as us. everything ends well today, alhamdulillah. we didnt fight, quarrel or unhappy about anything. cool.

And im planning a holiday with him to KL, well i hope it will worked cause im already excited for it alr. And sherry is coming along, i hope she can make it too with rausyan or someone since my girl firdayu cant make it.

my days this week

2011-12-01T20:59:00.002+08:00

This week have been a smooth sailing week so far.

School on mon/tues was fine and manageable though i came in class late for the Human Factors Engineering and wednesday fyp ppt was like a 10mins talk and thats it.

So monday head down to tampines for a meet up with sherry and rausyan since he decide to survey for bikes and i called fir but i bet she must be in school since the there is no connection, and i it ket failing on me. we chilled at starbucks and then had all beef chilli at wendy and slack and talk and head home.

Wednesday was even better, went to sch and head home and took a nap, woke up and get ready to meet the girls and we head to zam zam for dinner. I had murtabak and we went to merdandy's tgt with mirah and her bf and playes monopoly deal and they all shisha. We talked and chill and i do had fun, its been long since i last saw them all. Liyana head home first, then ri me and aqilah took 51 and head home.

Thursday- 1ST DECEMBER. I worked today and its kinda relaxing, not the usual crazy crowds but yeah still tiring. brrrr. Head home with best fries forever. weeeeeee... And all that matter now is my gf's and syahid is still not texting. Gosh!

Truth about me

2011-12-01T20:52:00.002+08:00

I cry a lot.
I need to feel needed by you.
I need to feel loved in order to be convinced.
I don’t need gifts. we want time
I don’t demand for expensive stuff. Just you.
I automatically get jealous when you confess to your crush.
I love you from you will fix mostly anything.
I love hugs and kisses…
I need you to be very honest with me about everything

2011-11-29T21:50:00.002+08:00

Something is not right, i dont feel good after what u told me in class. Anything can happen u see, ure a fickle minded person urself. I feel uneasy and paranoid these days. I just cant stop imagining things u can do in camp. I dont know if ure busy or tired, or ure texting her in bunk or smth i just need to let this out but not to you. I know ure gonna get mad when i try to talk to u, but i cant run away from my thought.

Perhaps i should just know that ure not that well these week and i should just get over it.

who can i trust?

crushed hope

2011-11-23T22:33:00.004+08:00

This is my 600th post.

Anyway what i wanna share right here with a heavy heart is that being a teacher means the world to me. Ever since i was a little girl, i really thought that i may have the ability to be one. And right now, when i have the chance to be one even if its a relief teacher i really want to be one. I dont know how i actually get this passion or interest to be a teacher but yeah insyaallah, one day perhaps i can be one. amin.

the reason why i couldnt apply for it was because of my maths. Its just my luck to be such a slow poke in maths ever since i was in primary school. But yeah alhamdulillah right now im doing good, though at times i still do struggle for it.

I just thought i can make it happen and make my parents proud but nope, perhaps i should just sign up for air stewardess or be an engineer or smth. Insyaallah i shall be someone useful for my parents.

But im really glad, i brought this topic to syahid on text msg and he comforted me just like i really needed one. Thanks for not making me feel any worst sayang.

And i wonder where my girls at?

Why so busy out of a sudden

2011-11-22T23:40:00.001+08:00

I really miss my girls. What happen to us? Shld meet up soon plsssss
I really really miss us hanging out though at times we are planless but sit one corner play monopoly deal works for me :))
I need some huggggs frm you too!

Weekends

2011-11-20T22:29:00.001+08:00

So hw i spent my weekend with my love is kinda splendid though time is not on our side we either meet uo early in the morning or late at night.

Saturday spend my morning w syahid in the theater watching immortals. Its kinda awesome, especially with his company ard feels alot better getting to see him. Too bad aft the movie we head back to bedok straight cause he needs to book in by 5 to support the soccer team. But alhamdulillah, im glad he did sacrifice his time for me aft the match which ends at abt 11pm though hw slpy he was and so we were fickle minded couple, took train to bugis frm lavender and aft alight we decide to go mustafa which was nearer to the jln besar stadium. Hahahaha but the long walk was nice, get to spend a little more time w him even though its late. Saw syahid frens along the way to mustafa and finally we reached mustafa and got our stuffs(cookies,perfumes,macncheese) and head hm by cab. Awesome saturday.

Sunday morning was even better, at least its suppose to be but i was late so i miss my chance to meet my boy earlier. Initial plan was to accompany him to his squadmate brother's wedding but he was rushing so he told me to meet him aft that. Yes, we met aft hrs of me waiting at hm but its all worth it cause he gt me ice cream milk tea and rushed to tamp central to gt a clock fr his bunk and other neccesities. Head back to bedok and again shop for another round, at least i gt to spend some time w him. Shopping's over, i head hm planless and watch tv the whole night and enjoy my mum's lemak cili padi crab on a rainy day. :))

saturday plans

2011-11-19T21:09:00.003+08:00

HOLA HOLA HALOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...

Its been a great saturday, woke up to an exitement of getting to meet up with love and bused to his place and even before i could reach his block i saw him walking along the aisle of the shops and yes i was delighted and suprise upon getting to see his face. I truely miss him alot, after we kinda argue kinda much too.

Head to tampines for immortals at 10.30am at century square and got ourselves hotdog and iced tea for breakfast.

Immortals is kinda awesome, kinda gore with the violence but yeah definitely enjoying my time with syahid. Its been a great day though its kinda short time for me to spend with him.

Back to bedok and went separate ways since he had to get ready for booking in. pffftttt... booking in on a saturday, why police whyyy u rob my time from my precious man.

Dad pick me up at bedok central and head to mendaki to settle kakak mendaki stuff, and head to parkway. Mama has always been a fickle minded woman, asking this and that to the salesman and in the end she didnt buy. walaooo make ppl mad and embarass only. head to NTUC for grocery shopping. Gotten pizza and biscuits brownie and cereal milk and stuffs... head home and went out for a hair cut w kakak and yan. seriously i shldnt cut at all the auntie seriously dont fucking know how to cut my hair! Bloody hell.

head home and watched tv till now, syahid says probably we will meet but i seriously doubt so.

Ohya, alhamdulillah ayah got back his car and everything is normal for now, but the reverse sound is new to me so i need to get used to it. Sounds like a chirpping bird.

2011-11-19T20:58:00.002+08:00

Greeting earthlingssssssssssssssss...

So yesterday spent half my day at the airport, visiting my SATS ladies at work and gave them my remaining pairs of stokings since they are running out of it and each pack cost 5 bucks. Thats expensive, for something that is super easy to get torn.

So first met up with my dear Nurul at meeting services section; a place where i should have been but since i was asked to go back to school i have no chance at all to experience how it should be handling pax around the world. A little chat with dear nurul and met valerie at T1 at watson and head to T2 to meet fiqah which she alr ended her shift and we skytrain to t3 and she head home and i got my aloe vera and candy empire for love as gifts. heehsss.

Head home, and watch tv all day until i got a call from baby and said hes home, was really excited to meet him up but then again i really expected it that he wouldnt be able to make it meeting me at night. So i was really disappointed and kinda mad but whatever. Did my report and head to bed.

Falsified

2011-11-18T20:30:00.003+08:00

Even before anything i have already guesses it as much as it will happened, it actually does.

I cant be bothered by it anymore, the next time you say this and that, i cant let myself to actually 100% relate to it cause if it doesnt happen at the end of the day, something's like pricking me hard within me thus causing heart ache.

Baby, you shld figure out why i have said those things and i do not want you to just jump to a point whereby im making accusations towards you cause i already know, its just that i wanted to hear it from urself ; be honest with me.

As a matter of fact when i opened up twitter and saw ur tweet, i know its something abt what i said. But you shld know what you did, i didnt just put it up to accuse you blindly boo. But ur words, yeah they hurt me enough tonight.

Girls worst day

2011-11-16T20:14:00.001+08:00

Hey ya'lllll! Hahahaha who am kidding no one read this shit.

Anw, had my bad day yest and plan to meet dear jen was backfired cause little miss came red came without warning and i have to leave class halfway cause of the unbearable pain. I do feel guitly calling it off again and again but its really painful i couldnt even walk properly. And it continues till night and this morning. Brrrr....

Gotten ready for fyp meeting today and alhamdulillah its not a long day afterall. Amin. Met up w wit at bedok and gave her the lip balm and had lunch at bedok int hawker centre and talk fr a while and head hm. ;))

faggot still alive

2011-11-13T20:08:00.003+08:00

Another long day without syahid, and my girls with me. kinda miss them all alr. My three best people!

Work was extra tiring today and my back and feet is aching due to the fact that a sudden huge crowd in c4 and the queue never stops. My shift was 10 - 4, and had to stand the whole day and its super busy till i cant even stop to have a sip of drink from my bottle. Exhausted from work!

Got home and had dinner, and slack on the bed, today rain the whole day, and i got syahid's msg as company though i dont gt to see him but yeah, getting his text makes me feel he's always with me.

Now talking abt unpleasant stuff, the same bitch i did told syahid about not to talk to again seems to be very stubborn and you,mister on the other hand still engage a conversation with her. I dont like it, seriously. u cheated on me behind my back, its really hard for me to trust u again, maybe i can nvr trust u ever again. Im sorry but ure causing for this to happen, u started it and whatever it may be u have to be honest with me.

fat's 20th

2011-11-12T11:34:00.004+08:00

Commemorating Fatiqah's 20th belated birthday, we had an advanced birthday celebration for her at swensen and suprise her with a little cookies and cream ice cream cake.

Meeting time was supposed to be 630 pm but yes the girls were sching and had to change to met at 8. I was tired of waiting and was famished so i bought little junkies to fill me up abit.

Overall, its really nice getting to see all the girls again aft sometime. We may joke harshly with one another but i hope none of us take it to heart. Insyaallah we shall have another meeting. Amin.

2011-11-12T11:14:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah, we have gone through till this far together, though theres alot of hiccups throughout these 34th months. Nevertheless, i am still grateful to allah having such a wonderful guy.

Its our 34 months today = 1034 days =147 weeks and 5 days = 2 years 10 months. No noooo, i didnt count the days from the calender, makes life easier for me theres an app on iphone tells me the days we've been tgt so far till now. Hmmmm, 1000 days plus is mega longgggggggg but i know theres still some couple out there can last long, but i wouldnt want to say i will be with you forever, cause situation changes under unwanted circumstances and i dont want to make promises if i cant fulfill it, plus i know nth last forever but as long as ure making the effort syahid, i will stay. :))

Alhamdulillah, we have gone through till this far together, though theres alot of hiccups throughout these 34th months. Nevertheless, i am still grateful to allah having such a wonderful guy.

everything else

2011-11-09T18:07:00.002+08:00

Been taking a long break from blogging now, and the reason i blog is for my update on personal agenda actually.

Alot of things happened lately, it may be unpleasant scenes but yes i accept it and take it as a learning experience for me in time to come. Its just that if im in the wrong definitely i will admit it, but perhaps yes its partially our mistakes thus i wouldnt want to take the blame wholely to myself and definitely share it equally among the other party. But fuck the malay stupid driver whobang my dad's car lah stupid cunt!

Whatever, its all in the past anyway but the case isnt over yet hope that we may have a slight chance of winning, meanwhile i really hope syahid is able to cope up now and not worry anything about it.

Been able to spend time with syahid even though we only had breakfast and walk ard bedok only, ok lah nt that fun but still im happy that im able to see him.

Miss my gfs as well, from my bestfriends fir and sherry to my girls as well, wit fat and jam. planned to have a dinner, hope it will happen, insyaallah amin.

see you girls tmr night!

2011-10-30T12:49:00.000+08:00

accident happend on friday night - 28 october 2011 at 9.05 pm.

2011-10-26T23:01:00.004+08:00

So its been a while since i last update my blog, which is for my personal use too. Been a great week this week, and a hell of a week for last week since i was sick for the whole week with a very bad headache which i cant even explain. Its like someone been pounding on my head with a huge hammer or more like a stampede by tons of elephants. ok i might be exaggerating abit but the pain was unbearable and its cause by the tonsillitis. My throat was covered in white spots, ewwww disgusting and i didnt get to see syahid for the whole week last week from

WEEKEND WARRIOR

2011-10-09T22:36:00.006+08:00

Its a good weekend overall, alhamdulillah. i get to meet all my three lovely people on saturday!

Decided to have lunch at swensen airport since i still have my airport pass with me and can get discount, so why not make use of it right. Heehs. Met love at bedok int and proceed to t3, and yes we argued along the way due to misunderstandings. But things get better after that, alhamdulillah. And i did had a good time with him even if its just lunch.

Beef lasagne was my choice, and his was chicken victioria and dessert was frosted choclate malt, with calamari rings as our side dish.

Walk around the airport and proceed back to bedok and walk around to get some last minute book in stuff for syahid.

Head home to catch up with my hindustan and not long after head out to meet my girls at tamp to accompany them for dinner. Aft dinner we walk ard the whole tamp. And i got myself a shirt and get desserts frm J.co and head home. My saturday was kinda perfect.

SUNDAY!
start my sunday morning rushed getting ready to meet syahid for his fb match at rp, but before i head out syahid decided he didnt want to go. Of course i got really mad and ignore him and told him off a little but then he keeps apologizing saying sorry, i kinda meltssss. but i was mad so i didnt give in. Half an hr ltr he called asking if i wanted to join him, and i thot why not since i can only get to see him for the next 5 days. Now im beginning to miss him again. Hate this feelings!

But yes, didnt regret tagging along since there's hidayah and zara for company and i witness syahid scored a goal! Central lose to nus but today was like the perfect ending even if they lose the game cause they didnt use vulgarities to one another instead they keep cheering even though they knew they are going to lose. Cab back to bedok and got my lunch and i head home.

first day if sch

2011-10-07T20:37:00.002+08:00

today school isnt as bad as i thought. Well, its not that good either but acceptable :)

my team mate is super helpful, they did the slide with me helping some points and we presented what we have. there's only 3 of us in the team, so obviously not as kecoh but im glad mas and kinson are both nice guys.

Met up with love right after school, and i had to take the bridge and 911 back to interchange since its raining cats and dogs earlier today. im so loving the weather, no complains!

Took 925 to CCK int which takes like 40 mins and tadaaaa ive reach and waited for awhile for my man. Quite appalled when i saw theres so many police men out there with the same uniforms and similiar spects as syahid, i thot i saw him but it wasnt. A good thing i didnt went up to approach him. if noooooooooooottt maluuu. But not long aft that we met, and got a quiche and trained back to bedok. Fucking packed train, and its bloody hot! Got burger ramly from pasar mlm and quite a short night with syahid but overall i enjoyed every bit of it although he forerver gt comment abt me. Such as bag nt suitable, bottle so kental put there, key dont out here, things have to put in a right way.

no matter what i cant stay mad at him for long, love youuuuuuuuuuuu much much moree!

hello school

2011-10-06T22:10:00.003+08:00

SCHOOL IS STARTING BACK TMR!

I hope i dont forget to go to school tmr since i only have 3 days of school.

So here i am saying.

hello 915/9.45am class
hello 3 meetings
hello 6ps
hello rj
hello fyp
hello to new classmates
hello quiz
hello UT's
hello peer evaluation

Haishhhhh. But nevertheless im still glad god gave me the chance to experience a week of hardship during my intern. At least i get to taste what its like to be in a working environment, and i have to admit, i am so not ready for that just yet. You have to wake up super duper early and gt ur hair done and make and wear ur uniform neatly. But for school wise, i just grab my jeans tshirt and my sneakers. yessss, so comfortable!

2011-10-04T21:20:00.005+08:00

29TH SEPTEMBER 2011

So its friday, friday gotta get down on fridayyyyyyyy. Yes my friday is superbly awesome filled with fun and friends. Today is different we didnt have to go to AFT5 for trg instead we meet up at t3 and start our treasure hunting. Yeah so my team was herricko, darren, amir and all the girls val nurul fiqah and me. So we went into the gate holding room, super awesome feeling nvr been in there before since i havent fly in my life. And we have the chance to enter the SIA plane, of course ah i jakon. And camwhoring all around and took pictures for the treasure hunting.

Everything went well until i received a call from dr goh saying she has to remove my name from sats since i alr did my PP, which i thot its so unfair cause uve alr given me a chance for intern and u wasted my time and money as well since i alr undergo fr the whole week of trg. Haishhhh serious org mkn byk babi mcm gini ah asyik menyusahkan hidop org je. dr goh, yap choon seng and mohan boleh belahhhhh.

So got home and had to sent my dad and nenek back to their places. and i had to fetch ayah too before meeting up with syahid and thot of catching a midnight movie but didnt happen and we did a little bit of catching up and had supper at nasrin and met syaz. and head home by 3 in the morning. love you syahiddd!

28th september 2011

2011-10-04T20:27:00.005+08:00

Soooooooooo its tuesday already. seems like ive been lagging in updating this blog just for my personal reference.

Anw, rewind back to few days ago on the 28th of september I made a plan to suprise my fav girl whose turning 20 tgt with fi help of course. I was on the bus otw home from intern trg when i called fir and asked if shes free and we made a cake for her at tamp one.Aft her butterfly cake is done we head home and meet up again at 11 plus and waited under her blk and tadaaaaaaa she saw us before we could suprise her. heheheh so we took her picture and camwhore a little bit more and we have to cab home. Awesome 20th bday to my babygirl!

there you goo happy birthday sherry!

intern makes me turn in early

2011-09-29T20:24:00.004+08:00

Yesss its been like four days eversince i started my attachment at sats. Hmmm been getting very well with the team from republic poly students since all the 16 of us are from engineering school and of the similar courses but different in course name. Ours would be civil aviation and another would be aerospace avionics. cool, so theres 4 girls with 12 guys in total makes us 16. And its hell of an awesome time with all the guys :)

yes we had lots of fun chatting, and camwhoring and playing hang man in class. just plainly nice bunch grp of ppl.

alhamdulillah

2011-09-25T13:29:00.002+08:00

I cant thank allah enough for actually helping me out these 2 and half years in my poly life. I thought this last semester im gonna flung but god is the greatest i cant believe i actually passed my modules and dont have the need to repeat any module.

Alhamdulillah,im truly grateful. Looks like now i do not have to worry abt any more modules its just work and work for now. And may my relationship with syahid zulkefli blossom eventhough we hardly get to meet one another for the next 6 months and may my friendship with my two lovable girls be stronger. Amin.

23 september is USS day for 5

2011-09-24T22:09:00.006+08:00

Finally!

Mummy rides for 5 times is incredibly awesome!

with planned poses for the snapshot during the ride.

Im proud to say yessss i did it! went on both human for 2 times and thrice for cylon with remy rausyan and fir! the best super turbulent ride on earth!

would love to ride this with love,syahid u better get ready for this ride the next time we come here!

Sherry :)

fir :)

the waterworld show is really fun with shocking scenes due to the fire works and gun shots and the part where the plane came without warning. And we got splash and shot with water hose i guess by the three guys who acted in the show and had ourselves covered with poncho.

snapsot in bus

our ears

hehehhe

hatsss

firework show last for 5 mins was totally amazing. i was in aweeeee..

hershey's photoshoot is fun. we had 3 shots with different poses and there they are. one big family. it would be complete if my baby is in there, and i meant syahid of course.

So on 23rd september its finally the day me fir and sherry broke our USS virginity.. yessss, im so glad we can all make a day for USS. Remy and rausyan came along as well, and its really a good thing since we were kinda lost on where to go and where to head to.

So i woke up at 6am in the morning, with like an hour of sleep the night before. Its a good thing i didnt faint in USS. Met up with fir at 745 and bused to bedok and wait up for sherry.

Bad omen

2011-09-23T01:27:00.002+08:00

I dont feel good seriously. its not that im sick i meant in a way when something bad were to happen god has already make it an omen to you before it happens. This bad feelings have been ever since the month of ramadhan. Its like someone or something will be taken away from me.the feeling of fear is so overwhelm the only thing i could do is just cry to let this bad feelings wear off even w/o knowing what will happened. Its scaring me up till now. I cant slp and this worries me ecen more. Is someone gonna get hurt or is because of my sch results or worst yet someone is dying? The last time i had this bad feelings my aunt passed away. I nvr want to have this feelings repeated again. Or maybe im the one gonna die. Well i never know it too.

LUCKY

2011-09-20T23:47:00.003+08:00

good friends don't go away that easy; i really do treasure them alot!!

a BLESSED day

2011-09-19T23:35:00.009+08:00

Caught johnny english with jen earlier today at cine. Met up at sommerset, she practically suprised me by attacking me from the back. heehs... Got our movie tix and move on to H&M for my formal pants, i got one but the queue for the fitting room was long and i had to forget about even trying it on. Moved on to uniqlo instead and got myself a decent pants for my attachment next monday.

Then we went shopping for harith bday gift and i saw few clothes at F21 i would really love to have! but too bad my bursary cheque is not in yet. boohooooo. if the stocks is still there definitely gonna get those clothes for myselffffff!

So went for movie and it was superb, i might wanna catch it again with syahid again perhaps. After the movie, jen got her lunch and i got my dessert at cold stone with chocolate chip mint :)

And camwhored throughout... and chit chat abt secondary school and such. We head home abt 7 pm. been a nice day w jen, hope we shall have our time again.

Meanwhile, received call from syahid at 816pm which is the earliest call ive received from him and he has water parade aft that and the reason he called was to hear my voice. how sweet rightttt. <3 <3 <3

And my two best girls are starting their first day at IKEA today. awww a new job for you ladies. Will miss you two loves! MUST SPEND TIME BEFORE I START MY ATTACHMENT PLEASEEEEEEEEEE IM BEGGING...

My BIG day

2011-09-18T21:11:00.004+08:00

So commemorating every 18th of september, the day of the month i grew older and wants to spend my time w my love ones, apparently my baby is in camp, and its still hari raya so my parents suprisingly said we will be visiting today. Already made plans w my best girls but had to cancel it of course.

But nvrtheless, mum bought me a cake w/o me knowing it and my elder sister friends happen to be at home for raya visiting and they suprise me with the cake set up on the dining table when i was in the room. lucky i havent change into something sloppy so i took picture with my kebaye on.

So thats how i spend my day..

I just need three important ppl apart from my family to wish me and i did get it. sherry would be the first to text and a phonecall by fir. how awesome can it get. Syahid did send in one text msg, though its and early text i understand he need to slp early for the day aft. Regardless that i still have to get back to the people who wishes me. Alhamdulillah much appreciated to those who wish me.

And im really missing my mr policeman now!

RESISTANCE

2011-09-17T20:19:00.008+08:00

Been 19 days of raya already
5 days since syahid's left to serve the nation
Another week left of my holidays till im left with no life since im having my attachment for 6 freaking months.

That's really longggg. But for now i cant wait to see my favourite man out from camp.

Cant wait to see how he really look like BALD, ive only seen on pictures, he doesnt look that bad still cute though. hehehhehe.. Its a good thing i can still get his text msg and get to call him late night just so i can hear his voice. Thats the only thing im looking for when night falls.

Hari raya has been a wonderful occassion, the only reason we can gather and have our friends over with loads of food and goodies... alhamdulillah this year i still get to celebrate it with love and his floorball club and also my best girls and with my poly mates.

Rushing myself to simei to meet the rest of syahid's team,i was late.

I think he really looks cute here.

he made me do this pose, i cant stop laughing at myself cause i was too embarrass but looking back at the photo im glad we did this funny poses cause it made me laugh

meet the rest of the gang

and again this lovey dovey pose

the ladies

this yr our BLUE colour year

my first house

i should give credits to whoever took this cause i look kinda good.heehs

meet my secondary school gang!

my best girls with the annoying elfi

this picture look so good.

F.j,fat,fir,sherry,me, wit, and adam's family!

mdm yani's house

sucking our fats IN!

forgiveness before receiving

I swear they are the best of all

hello whats yr name

sherry's place

fir's place

we look like kids here

solo

qas place

i cant stand to lose either one of them

Poly mates!

zeek place

hendri place

There you gooooo all the photos for my raya days!

2011-09-12T23:55:00.002+08:00

question: 'But are u giving up on me nw?'

reply : 'No. Nvr"

I guessed u were stressing out for tmr's enlistment right, and i had to give u a call talking and telling you about my frens. Maybe its just a bad timing afterall. As much as i wanna let out those stings of vulgarities, definitely that would mean im following my ego more than i treasure our rs. But nope, i did apologize to you but i received a reply saying done over react and u tweet abt ur family and i making u mad and fuck u was methaporically thrown at us. I think its unfair, i do love you alot trying to control my emotions i apologized again and asked u the qn above. And anxiously waiting fr ur reply im afraid if u said yes meaning it going to be over for us, again. But i think with the reply u sent me, its the best anniversary gift i received from you. Just someone i needed that is not going to give up on me.

Not being emo here lah but really i cried when u read ur reply. its seriously by far the best answer to the qn.

just a dream

2011-09-12T23:42:00.001+08:00

i think calling you tonight and thought that u can be my listening ear was a mistake. the least is comforting that i needed. but..nope.

so much for me thinking that ure gonna say that its gonna be fine or it will be okay soon.

bid goodbye for 2 weeks and 32th monthsary

2011-09-12T21:20:00.003+08:00

So its been three straight years we've been celebrating hari raya together, alhamdulillah. we have come this far. But still we cant predict the future what might happen and so on, im just hoping for the best for us of course.

So syahid's gonna be in camp for the next two weeks starting tmr, for now i can definitely understand how other girls feel when their bf are abt to go ns smth like that. Im just hoping that the these 6 months we have our own commitments since im starting my internship next two weeks for the next 6 months and he will be in camp for the next 6 months as well. But i do know he does have book out or whatever they call it, im still hoping we can spend when im having an off day and when ure not in camp. Insyaallah it will be a smooth journey ahead. Amin.

I did get to spend some time with him today which marks our 32th monthsary as well. We didnt get to do anything exciting cause im having my period cramps and he's injured. We went to look for his camp stuff and had lunch and got home. Nothing interesting but i just love being with him. And i love you :)) Be safe pleaseeee syahid zulkefli!

we should sort it out

2011-09-12T20:04:00.004+08:00

by any chance have i hurt both of my girls feelings or smth? well, i didnt get any reply or anything from you guys? so what's up?

i really miss you girls. have i done anything that making u guys mad or anything?

Worried and im not feeling good about this, hey if my best girls are reading this can u drop a text or smth?

NURSE BEING A BITCH

2011-09-01T22:12:00.004+08:00

Great, live ur live with ur past, ur previous ex gf, ur memories.

And seriously girl, u are really being a bitch talking behind my back, think im not able to find out. well, i didnt but my friends did and told me. I dont know why ure against me in any way? what the fuck i did to u? like it if i were to say that on my wall abt u telling people out there ur bf needs someone better what do u think?

I just dont get you bitch, seriously. Bad mouthing me in the cyber world just so that people think ure better than me, well i agree ure prettier than me but with attitude like that i cant agree more ure the ugliest girl on earth. What did i do to u anyway until u wanna dissed me infront of my boyfriend? really get a life u bloody nurse.

And for u syahid zulkefli, instead of defending me u didnt do anything, instead u want to live from ur past and reminisce about it but until when? she's dissing me so who crossed the line? if she didnt start i wont either. And its good enough i didnt say anything about her but she did say im no good for u. So what that makes me feel? i do have feelings. I just want u to protect me,from her scheming threats or strings of unhappiness towards me.

still smiling

2011-09-01T00:19:00.002+08:00

i think its privater here where no one would definitely read anything from here.

I think its not easy for you to forget her, am i right?

With thses technologies, updated thru phones or computer its more difficult for u not to fall for her again.

well, i guess she's ur first and only love. Idk but i dont want to be played on, she's in ur heart even when ure not in hers. Yup, that explains so much about it.

Im not overreacting, like what u always said but its what i thought. I just dont think u care abt me in any way. Unlike other couples, its not right to compare but its obvious to see what they can do and not u.

i dont think for you it will ever end.

alhamdulillah

2011-08-31T23:19:00.002+08:00

Second day of raya today which doesnt make any difference since my family didnt head out to visit families as dad had to work, mum is busy, little sister and brother have got exams going on and my elder sister working. And im the only one whose free, and feels bored the rest of the day and rot at home doing nothing. Wanted to meet syahid but im figuring its only the second day of raya, its not nice of me to ask him out when its just the second day of syawal.

So ramadhan is a success, managed to fast when im healthy and well. And was given a 10 days of excuse. Its been a great holy month and im able to break fast with Love's friends be it floorball and secondary school friends tgt with his ite mates and not to forget my bestgirls fir and sherry and rausyan and remy. And with my classmates as well. Alhamdulillah. I hope doing my exams during ramadhan i could have the berkat so that i could pass my modules.

So far all are good, ties with family, friends, my best girls and my bf. I hope insyaallah, we're going to be just fine.

No more school is the saddest thing being a kid

2011-08-29T01:48:00.000+08:00

No further explanation required, read the title and it says it all people! Yeah man. Schools out like two days ago and truthfully that's like my last day of school tgt with my classmates and I gotta admit I'm quite sad to face the reality I'm not gonna be in school and be with them anymore. So here are some list that's I'm not not gonna have in school for the next semester.

NO MORE 9.45 am LESSONS

NO MORE WAKING UP EARLY , FOR SCHOOL

NO MORE FACILITATORS IN CLASS

NO MORE 1st 2nd and 3rd meeting

NO MORE RJ

NO MORE QUIZ

NO MORE UTs

NO MORE BREAKS WITH MY PEERS

NO MORE PPTs IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE CLASS

NO MORE ANOTHER OF FYP SHITS

THE SADDEST PART NO MORE FUN OEERS I'VE KNOWN FOR LIKE 2 & 1/2 YEARS IN RP.

Soon I'm gonna go on attachment at the airport and I'm really wishing that im gonna at least pass all my modules just so that I do not have to repeat another year. Amin! That's my ultimate wish right now to pass all my module!

Syahid game

2011-08-29T01:26:00.001+08:00

I'm updating a little late for love's highlight of the game. Wasn't able to be there cheering for him but yeah my man scored a goal. It's just a pity I wasn't there to witness his winning goal. I just wanna say I'm really proud of u, being able to hold ur fast the whole day and commit to ur game!

pre-destiny

2011-08-20T21:08:00.001+08:00

Allah has already written the names of your spouses for you. What you need to work on is your relationship with Allah. He will send her/him to you when you’re ready. It is only a matter of time

Im not sure who is it gonna be but i hope he will lead and guide me to the right path closer to god. amin :)

school love friends

2011-08-15T22:59:00.006+08:00

Havent been posting anything for the past weeks. Well, been usy with school stuff such as FYP and internship with class work and other shits..

Well school have been using up most of my energy, goi

ng back and forth for class and presentation and ph

ototaking session is one whole lot of a roller coaster emotions i got.

Talking about school, my FYP is down! yeahh man, alhamdulillah we did manage to clear it, but i must say i do owe it much to my team leader nabilah who really perservere and did her best for the team. Therefore i really do appreciate her effort as well as my other team mates though they are not much of a help but still, without them we cant form a good team to hendriawan, mus and hana. Thank god for the blessings for our FYP.

Now class are all over, well i admit im so gonna miss school and i am so gonna miss my peers. And the things we did in class. I think its gonna be the last day today im in class as im gonna go for internship, insyaallah(god willing), amin. Year 3 sem 1 has been the most relaxing class ive ever got. I dont get bullied like the previous classes, people in my class now is more chilling and awesomest ever. we get tgt well be it chinese or malays.

Today we had our photo-taking session, and its for the whole cohort of DCA students. how cool! So yeah its been a great year seen familiar faces all ard the photoshoot room and its been nice knowing them though i didnt talk to them before just a slight smile exchange is good enough.

Personal life have been way too good, alhamdulillah. fasting have been smooth, until i got my period so its a puase for me for a week! weeeee... and me and syahid zulkefli been in a good ties. We're not usually like this but im glad we have been in a good boat these days. Saw his match yesterday at RP, made it at the 11th hour cause of my cramps i couldnt came early to watch him play for the first period. But they won with 4-3 to endura! Yeaaaaaa, cab to bugis and we had supper and bus home, and met him agn tonight aft break fasting w my classmate at botak jones. and we spend some good time laughing in Mcd.. i know i had a good time.

My favourite girls...well been missing them for quite some time! havent been on a decent outing. Hoping for tmr please, gonna get my hair done tmr! yayyy.

Weekend the BOMB with my syahid

2011-07-31T23:29:00.004+08:00

Sunday was spendid! Spent my morning till noon sleeping. Woke up had lunch, mum cook sotong hitam and lemak pucuk ubi. Life is goooooooood if everyday like that >,<. Panic attack when syahid text me saying he was ready. I got ready after that and met him as usual under his blk. Bused to mustafa and met w ri and aqilah. walk around mustafa and city square after which we had early dinner at USMAN, a feast of naan, butter chicken, keema aand tandoori chicken. Alhamdullilah my last feast w love before fasting mth. Its superb good.

Walk back to city square when a stupid bangla who doesnt know how to walk properly and look ard for people and step on my big toe causing to bleed and my nail was peeled off. Still hurts till now ass bangla! Entered cotton and tried out some tops and when we're exiting we were asked to open our bags and they wanted to conduct a fucking random check.

Bloody hell the reason being we were too long in the store in a big group. Im not sure why but its just 4 people u bloody shitty ass people! And we didnt even took anything nvm city square cotton on is a fuggery shit place to shop at. Syahid ri and aqilah was pretty mad so am i but yeah its ur job but searching our bags out of the store embarrassed us siaa. buffalo lahh you two worker..

Trained to geylang but aqilah gt home early me syahid and ri search for baju raye. but i think im good, i still got my kebaye blue colour for this year. Yes me and syahid alr planned this yr theme colour BLUE-my fav colour. hehehehhe ^^ I Love You syahid!

2011-07-31T22:52:00.002+08:00

Saturday was pretty much fine. Felt kinda weak first thing in the morning when i woke up, probably due to my cough and my chest kinda hurt since friday night. So had to get ready for sch for my PP presentation at 930 am, got to know its like few students for an 1 hr not 1 hr each! fuhhh baik dohhh. Time constraint was the reason my presentation was short and sweet. hehehe.. awesome.

Met love straight after that at bedok and bought our tix for Captain America. Finally we could watch it! Lunch at kopitiam- sliced fish soup. NICEEEEE.. Walk around PS and syahid bought his lunch and we ate opposite istana house and slack there. Time for movieeee. Captain america was pretty awesome - hot hot heat! But i prefer THOR WAY MUCH MOOOOOOORE! Met up with my girls and rausyan at ben and jerry at cathay and we head to marina for dinner at manhattan fish market! Couldnt really catch up with the fireworks.

Aft dinner we walked to MBS- its definitely a long walk. And i know ure kinda pissed cause ure really tired but so am i. I knew ur temper well but not too well as u could blew ur top off. Im glad ure unlike other guys who follow ur ego and wouldnt talk to me all the way back home. Thanks for the food treat love, and thanks to rausyan fir and sherry with mas for a wonderful evening out and dinner babies!

Thursday awesome fun with classmates

2011-07-29T22:09:00.006+08:00

Wen to school as usual, and alan dreaded us and interrupted as well released us late for home. Finished up my PP poster and thanks god imran brought car. we me anna wei long and nigel head to the printing shop and get our A1 poster done! Waited for aishah as shes late and i was so hungry and we decided to have dinner before going off for ice cream. Had duck rice and after that shah pick us up with his car and we get our posters back from the shop and waited out at cathay like a crap while the others were at botanical garden waiting fr us. Fun started when 2 cars and a lorry met, headed to dempsey hill and ICE CREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.

Hell yeah or shld i say this is the far bestest greatest classmate outing everrr. alhamdulillah! they are all rocking fun. Haunted house and i had no idea why but they headed and made us go to the cemetry. its nothing scary though i was shaking with aishah at the back of imran car seat. hahaha
awesome mate with carmen, fandi, imran, shahridan, nigel, wei long, priscilla, amanda, aishah, anna, ashwin, danny, syauqi.

there poster!

brownie ice cream

the guys

three

harry potter lunch league

2011-07-24T22:22:00.002+08:00

So spend my day with boo on friday..

we desperately wanted to watch harry potter movie and bought the tix even though seats were third row from screen. Its kinda near and im afraid syahid might be uncomfortable cause he is soooo tall but he seems fine. Harry potter and the deathly hallows worth watching though i havent watch the part 1 yet. hahahha.. But still a day worth spending with love. Ben and jerry aft that and slack at vivo roof and 30 home.

Saturday!

was pretty much relaxing cause work was fine and smooth and met sherry for dinner/late lunch at parkway and had pastamania. Bought koi and famous amos cookies and i walk sherry home to kill time while waiting for syahid to arrive to bedok int and hand him my cookies and koi cause he's too cute and let him enjoy those goodies while watching soccer sg vs msia!

At least i get to see him though its just for a few mins and have lunch with my best girl!

Sunday!

Head to syahid's first thing in the morning and waited for him to get ready for his match. Quite a sumptuous breakfast he gave me! totally awesome and filling. made my morning ^^ and we head rp. Reach at 230 and his match was at 5. waited and watch the other teams played.

Team central amazingly won todays match, compared to last week they lose to owf spartens. They did good today, i know syahid did good cause he assist the first goal. Of course im proud ah! I know we had a little arguement because im jealous but thats because i love you. Im sorry syahid. take care love!

2011-07-21T22:20:00.002+08:00

if ure searching fro this might as well end up not being tgt cause i can nvr get those legs, those figures, those heights, those face, every of the things she has i dont.

Sorry if im not perfect enough for you.

happy birthday dad

2011-07-21T21:42:00.002+08:00

Didnt get to post this on time specially for my dad!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUUUUUUU!

He turned 52 this year. alhamdulillah, may he's bless with good health and long life! Amin.

syahid coming back

2011-07-18T23:54:00.004+08:00

Stay home weekend dudesss!

Saturday i rmbr staying hm since ive got nth to do, and i know my cramps would come but it didnt. how awesome! So being a good daughter as well as gf of syahid i stayed home trying to finish off my fyp report.

Watched tv from evening onwards and cont till night..

Sunday was even better, cant really slp on saturday night knowing my boy is coming home. And we met for his fb league at RP, teaxi our way there. He played real good, real awesome. thats my man of course!

Had dinner and head home aft that.

helpful classmate

2011-07-15T22:58:00.002+08:00

Today was one of the worst day in July i think. Well it may be bad most of the time, but at least ive got people around me taking care and be with me throughout the journey.

So starting of the day, i got shun out of the class by faci saying that my footwear wasnt appropriate. I was like WTF, but yup he is fair. He asked me to leave class, without arguing i did. As i was abt to leave fandi stop me and said u wanna wear my shoe. i was like 0.0... hahahahaha. see ive got awesome classmates helping me out first thing in the morning and all was supportive. i was kinda embarrass having the need to wear men's footwear in class, but i did cause i dare not jeopardize my grade.

During class ive gt team mates helping me out with the ws question, wei long was exceptionally good. he helped me with most of the ws answers. Cramps started to developed aft break it was so horrible till i cried like mad in class. Danny offered me a stress ball as i asked from him yest. awww so sweet right je brought me a stressball for me to squeezeeee. And carmen help me out and asking if i was okay, fandi and syafiq go all the way to booklink and buy for me all types of panadol. hahaha funny i only told them to get panadol extra yet they buy me all sorts of panadol. Thanks to shah and imran asking me how i was.

So there u have it. I swear im in love with my class this semester, so chill, relax and calm yet supportive and helpful with one another.

My bad day doesnt end there. I insisted sending grandma home as i wanted to treat her to ice cream at siglap at udders. So ive got my best girls to accompany me and we head to siglap for ice cream. Everything was fine until i slow down at the zebra crossing and BANG a car hit me from the back. Its a good thing everybody was fine no one was injured but dad said i give him too much trouble all these while. I did what i shouldnt do, i shouted and rant at my grandma, im not able to forgive myself either for shouting at her, i just didnt know what to do. it my first ever accident and i was panic. I dont mind god take my life the next day cause i cant afford to lose her. Thanks to both my loves fir and sherry for being with me thru thick and thin. Thanks for staying with me all these while though how unreasonable i was. love you both. may god bless my family, frens and my lovely grandmother.

summer sun down

2011-07-14T21:22:00.004+08:00

to be honest im still insecure, insecure of our relationship. I know its simply not healthy for me to be keeping it withing, i choose not to let it out to you because i know ure sick and tired of this alr.

Knowing u well, im still not sure if we are able to stabilize our relationship for long or no. but as long as i can hold on to you i definitely will. Im sorry, ure a really good guy.

seeing those girls u ever had a crush on i all the things u want me to be and im non of it. She can dress well, she played sports, shes not skinny, she can put on make up- everything they can do i cant. thats is why this insecurity is contagious and its eating me up till i know they are everything and im nothing to be compared to an girls out there.

I rather argue with you than be with some else. -anonymous

i totally agree with this quote. its true syahid, i rather argue with you than be with someone else.

2011-07-14T20:30:00.006+08:00

i cant stop laughing when belle ask me to do a double chin and this is the result of it.

Hell yeahhhh. I survived while syahid was away to kelantan. Now its alr day 5 without him. i cant deny i do miss him loads but what to doo, when he's not here i make do with it. Now i really know how the girls with bf who travel's long long long time and away from you for days or weeks.

Anw ive got no idea why the hell im posting about my time of the month but hell it hurts much! But rum bum bum bum ive got the coolest shitest FYP team mates ever people! I have to say, yes the change od timing of the fyp meeting kinda piss me off. Team leader initiate at 1030 and ive gotten out of the house but u texted saying meet at 12 instead. I was mad, but found smth to do which is accompany fir my baby to school. so waited abt an hr for her class to end and without realising my period had to come out of many days. So cramp started, and i just watch fir and her classmate playing sports game. Its so much fun wish i could join in had it not been for the cramp.

So i left at 1130 for school, and met my mates at 1230. yup was late but lucky leader was fine with it. She gave me task to do. and look at the pictures above, yeah mann hana and belle took those photos. I had a good time laughing my ass out looking back at those hilarious pics.

We didnt do anything for that day but i know i gotta finish my task b4 next wed. And so we had test at 445, thats killing me already. Had to revise while im in pain. how can like that. HIYAAAA. i think im gonna flung it. wasnt able to finish all question soo blardy the difficult.

This is called love- doesnt matter where am i as long as its with you.

2011-07-10T21:46:00.016+08:00

POST BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION OUTING WITH LOVE ON 6 JULY!

So i kinda ditched my FYP meeting for a day out with love. I alr planned the day for us but unfortunately it didnt go according to it. But thats fine anyway, the most important thing is that im able to spend a good time with my boy commemorating his turning to 2 decades old.

So met him at his viod deck as usual, and start our day to hereen getting his paycheque, after which undecided places to go we head to vivo bused 65 there and walk ard daiso and not buying anything since the queue is super long. And initial plan was to watch transformers only, but i kinda pestered him to have a walk at the sentosa boardwalk. Place was effing calm since its just the both of us. like totally awesome! Snap some pictures and we entered sentosa on foot.

Wanted to do some activities but the birthday boy is whining since its a really hot day, had to agree and give in to him. Took him to Siloso beach resort swimming pool and soak my leg for abt few mins and we chill at McD and head back to vivo. Pretty much a short day at sentosa but we booked transformers and sat on the theater for about 2 hrs or so. I got butt cramps, buts its kinda worth it since im watching it with Syahid :)

Home after that. Sum it all, a short day but its all worth it ditching and the whining but at the end of the day i really enjoy ur company.

i know i look hideos but ignore just ignore me, just filling in a space for our pic in the first row.

i swear to god i dont care how skinny you are or how you look, to me ure fine and handsome as the way you are. THOR <3

cute rightt

sachokk broo

sentosa boardwalk is soo empty on wedenesday..

my man <3

the best milk ever tasted. worth 3.10 bucks for it.

2011-07-10T21:37:00.006+08:00

heyyyyyyy hooooooooo!

Weekend was burned cause as usual i gotta work. but considering the temporary job i have now i nothing to compared to other people's job having the need to stay long and takes up almost the whole day of their entire weekend just by slogging themselves at work without having time for themselves. i may whine abt being lazy to go to work and how the mgmt sucks big time but im kinda loving my job cause its simple, i may get fucked by customer alot of times but their not always right so beat it.

But these two days- yesterday and today was fine! relaxing and managable. alhamdulillah. and had lunch with sherry for today. mcspicy with curly fries satisfy my craves!

Meanwhile, syahid off to kelatan for a week. Well that seriously sucks i tell ya, but im gonna train myself like as if he in the camp. haha cheyyy practice first! since he will be in camp for two weeks straight if he's alr in ns. but thats fine, gonna find something to do while his away, something productive of course for this one week. hmmm study perhaps. Hell yeah, i gotta start revising.

Im so gonna miss him but im gonna let loose for a moment. obviously he deserve some time alone to be away from me.

2011-07-08T22:16:00.003+08:00

Smooth day today, lesson today was relaxing though i think i kinda screw up but the heck i already did my part and all is a-okay....

Met up with love after school at sports complex with syaz, early dinner/late lunch treat by the sexy tall referee. awesome food at eatzi. I didnt regret not ordering the lobster bisque which is the soup of the day cause its freaking expensive, but two spoonful from syahid is kinda enough, the taste is heavenly! perhaps some other time i shall drop by at eatzi and have just the lobster bisque cause its just awesomeeeeeeeeee..

he's having that lobster bisque :)

my beef stew

his trio fish

our dessert

so yeah, he treated me to dinner after which i left home and tango-ed....

im on a cloud 9

2011-07-07T21:25:00.002+08:00

Suuuuuppppppppppppppp yawwww!

so its been a few days already since my boy turned 20, so no hes no longer a boy, hes turning into a young man, and the best part is my handsome sexy tall man for myself!

So the plan worked out perfectly. Its kinda hard having to liase with alot of people at one go but when it worked out amazingly all the burden can be felt lifted up my shoulders. Its just a metaphor, didnt mean it literally. heehs!

So yeah, i got syaz help to get him a bday present, since i knew he does need a new stick bag!
Liasing with syahid secondary school friends isnt that bad but to those who refuse to co-operate yet still turning up for the suprise im really glad you did, cause we do had much fun!

Plan worked out really well, thanks for the co-mastermind of the suprise, to aqilah apiz ri and fahmi coming down to Mak's place just to plan this birthday suprise is just really helpful!

I may not be part of you guys, but honestly i enjoy ur company on every outing as much as i enjoy syahid company alone.
thanks to everybodyyyyyyyyy- syahid mum, syahid brother, mirah, sam, fahmi, haerull, din, apiz, aqilah, and ri for making it a success, and i hope syahid u really love it! it would be better if its a full house with nad and arep too.

birthday burst

2011-07-04T21:02:00.003+08:00

Time flies fast isn't it. Another 3 more hours my little boy is turning a BIG 20, living 2 decades in this world. How awesome, grooooooooooooooooow old!

Im excited for tmr, his big day! been almost a week since i last saw him nevertheless we still text each other up and still manage to make me smile even though he is nowhere near. I really like that, but i do miss him much!

Last week brisk away smoothly... no test no stress just relax and spend time with love love and love!

Last friday met up with my lovelies fir sherry and rausyan head to lagoon for a seafood feast! crab fish oyster omelette chicken squid! its nice getting to see them

weekend got burned cause i worked on both weekends! I hope this week would be a good one since its my bf birthday!

2011-07-04T20:44:00.001+08:00

take a look at myself, all fucked up.

no chill chill here

2011-06-30T22:29:00.003+08:00

Lesson was trueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeely draggy today. for some reason im not being a racist but i do know my fucking chinese faci is so fucked up bias! asshole! i did alot for my part and i get the same constant grade which doesnt really satisfy me. ur comments to me wasnt even relevant at all. like the fuck to you lah. i know whether i attend ur class and do rj whether i asked alot of qns of keeping quiet u would give me the same old damn grade. so why i would even bother to participate in ur stupid draggy naggy lesson, i rather do well in exams.

Its a good thing i didnt make plans with love, else he would have to hear my rants for school today! heehs.. winduuuu you already!

met up with fir for like an hour at mc and made a farewell vid for michael as he is leaving for canada soon! i dont think both me and fir can be actress sia. the way we talk and had nvr ending bloopers for i think over 12 videos made my cheeks numb and i cant smile anymore! but its fun, and i love her so much for sparing me some of her time. cinnamon melt burned my tongue!

Oh ya a short post for yesterday celebrated ri mini bdae celebration at nabins. Though its not the usual full strength nevertheless with just aqilah apiz fahmi and ri tgt with syahid love i do had fun with them. Dinner and sheshaaa at nabins and cake cutting session at east coast by the beach. so romantic rightttt! and love never fail to make me laugh most of the time last night. Im so lucky to have you syahid.

dirty dirty dirty sucker

2011-06-28T23:30:00.002+08:00

Sooooooooooo i survived my 5 days without love around, being a very good girl i only spent my time at home after school and accompany my sisters for shoe shopping at ion and expo. everything went smoothly when hes away and im glad ure back safe and sound here in sg baby!

School is draining me out, in hopes of not to have a really bad results im trying to cope with all things. At the end of the day who else enlightened me apart from god who gave me the strength to continue and persevere- syahid, fir and sherry of course!

Its been 9 weeks of first term of third year now, im glad we are all able to blend in though a little awkward with certain people. Its kinda awesome though! i kinda like my class, all relax and chill turtle kinda people!

running out of words.. gonna turn in now!

coming along again

2011-06-23T22:19:00.001+08:00

Of course, you’re going to get your heart broken. And it isn’t just going to happen once, but a lot. That’s just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. Then you can handle it better next time. You may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you through it. And you’ll be a stronger person because of it. Then one day someone will come along, and it’ll all pay off and no one will ever break your heart again.

tired

2011-06-23T22:05:00.003+08:00

seeing them as a happy couple makes it more hard for me to actually see my future. How is it gonna be for me and syahid to overcome everything in future. Im serious enough about this relationship, im just afraid its not gonna work out again, and that you're gonna walk away from my life again. its just so tiring.

Happy loving couples everywhere, wish you're able to do things without me telling you to do it. whats the point if ure not using ur own initiative.

2011-06-21T12:52:00.003+08:00

It's too early to say anything yawwwwwwwwww. But but but a great news for me when Mr Mohan asked me 'Do you want to be a cabin crew?' I was like SAYYYYYYYY WHATTTTTTTTTT inside my heart jumping for joy with my eyes about to pop out! of course im really interested to be one! yeeehawwwwwww.. told him my criteria to be a cabin crew doesnt meet in terms of my height. 'Whats your height'? i said "158". 158 should be okay, if theres a vacancy perhaps i could be one. i got no problem paying $1500 for the course fee!

But then again, if i got no attachment next semester, i will be schooling for 3 days only! FUCKYEAHHHH! another great news right! threeeeeee days school only, and 4 days rest!

hmmm, its a win win situation! either choice i get i will accept it wholeheartedly, and let god decides my future. amin.

school holes

2011-06-20T00:10:00.005+08:00

As im currently doing my report, it suddenly strike to me that time pass by real quick. I could still rmbr how i first entered class and not able to log into the msn. HAHAHAHHA hilarious moment and pretty fucking awkward, less that i know i had to connect to the stupid VPN first before logging into my msn. Making frens was a real fucked up cos starting over a new chapter in a new school isnt easy, so is moving on after i first broke up with my current rs.

Im not sure if im a real freak that i could still rmbr crying, not being to hold my tears reaching in class on the fourth day of school, tearing up during my break and refuses to eat just cos i got no appetite. But we made up and patch things up again. Frens were there, the sweetest thing ever my girls came down to my school and suprise visit me during my first year in RP, thanks to sherry and fir for being there for me always. i thank allah for bringing us tgt!

Second sem was as bad, in fact it was the best class ever, cause i got along well with the guys though they are pain in the ass, but awesome mates. And again, we had a time out. But still i cant get over just like you cant get over of ur previous gf up till now i suppose. Overall second sem is the BOMB!

Second year is was pretty fucked up but yeah i hang on,having maths everyday really ticks me off. But heyy i pulled through. hell yeahhh! i thought i can never make it, but then again, i owe to my brainiacs peers who taught me for all those POA, stats and excel shits thingy. Hmm, still hanging on strong for shefirsha and syahid up till now. so yup, i survived second year, eventhough maths just killed me with its equations and problems.

Third year now, nth new in making new frens. Simply just walking few steps and u will see someone u know.. cheyy like popular only.. haha, not for me i barely see someone i known. just a random hi and bye moment there.

i just realise that every semester there must be at least one break up of my rs. hmmm, i think if the next break up would occur, perhaps i shld just fucking move on. Chances are maybe u dont belong with me. It breaks my heart to see you with other girls but i shld suck it up and be strong. easier said than done. I had time of my life when im with my baby syahid now! how can i live it up to the near future without him? Not just syahid but what would i do without my best girls as well.

nong nong nong time photos

random

2011-06-16T23:48:00.001+08:00

i wish you would text me 'good morning beautiful, text me when you're up'

i dont usually get these kind of text.